Tuesday, October 25, 2011


I can't sleep.  I feel all spooked out where I am tonight.  The trees are giving these weird shadows and it is making me uneasy.  I have not felt this scared in a long time.  I think the stress of this is really getting to me.  My hair seems to be falling out at a much larger rate than seems normal.

I am still freaked out about that cop.  I am not sure why, as it was only a ticket.  But, he was so mean too me, that I am afraid of ending up on his radar.  Although, that is pretty arrogant of me.  I make it seem like he has nothing better to do than run after me.

I am really tired.  I didn't sleep well last night, and it doesn't look like tonight will be much better.  I am going to look at this shelter tomorrow and I am hoping it is OK.  Like I said, I am running out of options so it will have to do regardless.  There is a nice shelter but it is too far for me to get to and from work from there.  I also need to find out where I can park my car.  I am thinking that I may have to get some sort of monthly pass and park it in some garage, but that is just another expense that will keep me homeless longer.  But until I can get everything fixed so that it is more drivable than it is now, I can't only go so far.  The tire repairs and the ticket have thrown my budget into a tizzy.

Something that I have been meaning to bring up for a while now, and never do is bathroom etiquette.  People are pigs.  I am homeless and I leave the bathroom very neat, or as much as I possibly can.  Is flushing the toilet really that hard?  I mean c'mon now.  It takes you two seconds to reach over and press the button or press the lever.

I overheard this mother talking to her little girl the other day and she told her to use her foot to flush.  So now I have to worry about all the germs that she has on her shoes too?  You can't pick up an additional piece of toilet paper and flush that way?  That is what I do.  Just remember, people like me only have the option of a public restroom.  It doesn't take all that much to clean up after yourself.  If a homeless person can do it, so can you.

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry you are feeling so discouraged and pray that you are able to find real help for your situation. I think about you often and say prayers for you.