Wednesday, May 11, 2011


It didn't take me long to feel completely and utterly cut off from the rest of the world.  McDonald's has tv sets now that are tuned to CNN, so I have been trying to keep up with the news that way.  I have my trusty computer that I can use when I find free WIFI so that is another way that I can keep informed.  But, watching Fox is next to impossible.  I guess people don't consider it mainstream enough to play in public places.  Which is odd considering that it is the most watched cable news channel.  At least the last time I checked.  I never thought I would say this, but I miss Bill O'Reilly. 

I sent out three more resume's today.  I must say that two of the jobs I am perfectly qualified for, now I just have to see if I hear anything back.  Fingers crossed.  I must admit that I get a little upset when I see places that still have hiring signs out after I fill out an application.  But, I know when I was managing and doing hiring I always paid attention to the work history and thought to myself why I would hire someone who is very over qualified for the position because then I would have to start all over again in a short period of time.  With unemployment being what it is companies can afford to be picky.  I understand that, but it sure sucks to be at the moment.

Another really bad sales day at work today.  I sold nothing.  I mean it is getting so bad that I will barely make enough to put gas in my car and get some food let alone save anything to find a new place.  But I am trying to keep telling myself that it can only get better from here.  I don't have too much more to fall. 

Have a good night. 

Tuesday, May 10, 2011


I have not been in the mood to post.  I am having a hard time keeping myself from breaking out in tears.  I was kidding myself that I would be ok with what is happening to me.  It is very scary not to have a place to go.  It is very scary being alone in your car at night.  I have only $30 to last me until I get paid again, and that is more than a week away.  I am not sure how I will have enough to eat. 

I did have a job interview today, but it didn't go well.  They were not willing to hire me because of my other part time job, but since they too were only hiring part time quitting does me no good.  I end up in the same place.  Actually I end up in worse place because I at least have the hope that I can have a big sale and make a decent paycheck for a change.  This was an hourly position that doesn't pay well enough to live on. 

I am trying to locate some charities that may be able to help me out, but I can't seem to locate any.  As much as I don't want to, I think I am going to have to go and panhandle so I have enough for food.  I really can't believe what my life has become.  It really does show you that the saying "But for the grace of God, go I".  I always knew that not everyone that was homeless was drug addict.  Some people are just down and out.  I don't use drugs and I rarely ever drink.  So that is not my issue.  I had a great deal of money saved up when I lost my job, but over time it just ran out.  I simplified my life the best that I could.  I got rid of all unnecessary expenses and I still ended up here. 

I just hope that God watches out for me.