Monday, October 31, 2011


Well I am back on the road again.  It was nice to get some decent sleep and a real shower for a change.  I have realized that no matter what I do I am tired.  I think my body is reacting to the stress by wanting to shut down for a while.  So no matter how much sleep I get I am still tired.  I guess this won't change until I am settled and the anxiety I am feeling is gone.

Today is Halloween.  I love this day normally.  But I won't be doing any celebrating today.  I have get my laundry done.  The place where I stayed was much more expensive to do my laundry that it wasn't worth it.  So I lugged all that stuff around for no reason.  Oh well, live and learn.  Now I know.

I went and spoke with that organization that may be able to help me.  They seemed nice.  I filled out the paperwork for the screening process that they do.  I have to go back next week.  Normally they don't want to wait that long, but my work schedule won't allow me to go back any earlier.  There was no time that worked for me in the hours that they had available.

I have another place to try as well and I have a phone number for another person who may be able to help too.  So I am hoping that one of the three will be able to find some sort of temporary housing for me.  I am lucky at least because the cold spell seems to be gone for the rest of the week and I will be fine in my car.  I can keep myself warm down to the low 40's pretty easily.  That isn't something that I ever would have thought in the past, but you can do it if you try.  Just dress in layers, keep your head warm, and wrap yourself in a few heavier blankets and you will stay warm.

I meant to tell you that I saw that young kid again.  Still in a tshirt and shorts.  I really hope that he found some place to stay for the past two nights because it was cold.  I want to give him a pair of sweats that will at least help keep him a little warmer.  But I didn't have them with me since I hadn't seen him in a while.  So I will start carrying them with me again so I can give them to him.  I have a few pairs, and like I said I realize that I am in a much better position than some.

I also have to go and buy anti freeze today.  I wasn't able to do before today.  It is hard when you have to budget every dime you have and any little thing throws you off.

It isn't my imagination about my hair falling out more than normal.  I couldn't believe how much hair was in the shower when I was done.  I don't look like I am going bald or anything, but if it keeps up at that rate, I would think I will be soon.  I can't let myself get too stressed about since there isn't anything that I can do to stop it.  I think it is stress related anyway.  Strange things happen to your body when you are under severe duress.  I was doing ok until I realized that the winter is coming fast.  That is what has gotten my mind so stressed.  Somehow in my mind I believe that heat was more doable than the cold.  I don't know which is worse.  The heat was pretty bad on a few nights, and with the cold you can put on more clothes and use blankets.  So maybe the heat is worse.  I don't know.

Well have fun trick or treating.


  1. Well dog gonnit, I was hoping you`d be able to stay in the motel longer and do your laundry there.
    Watch out for the Trick or Treater Haints out tonight.
    Still praying for your safety and improved job,car and living conditions. Hang tough !

  2. I meant to mention, anti-freeze is cheapest at big box discount stores like WalMart (I bet you knew that) but the guys at auto parts stores can check the coolant to see how cold it will stand and tell you the right AF to water mix ratio and might find the leak for you.

    Also, you likely aren`t getting to wash your hair frequently (you don`t get to shower often), that might be why it appears you are losing your hair quicker now. Stress is also a cause. I pray you will be able soon to relieve your stress with a better job and a permanent place to live and a more balanced and dependable diet !

  3. Ms. Zilla:
    I have not gotten anything yet, but at least they seemed liked they were really trying to help. Most other places just say here is a food pantry you can go to or there is a shelter here. Food pantries do me no good at all because I can't cook.

    Mr. Guy;
    The anti freeze I bought is already mixed with water. I couldn't find any that wasn't. So I am hestitant to mix it further. I will have to see how that goes. Also, I know where it is leaking from, I just don't have the money to fix it. Everytime I save the money for it, I end up having to use it for something else. That is also only a temporary fix because the problem is really something else that is almost $800 to fix. Which is not in my budget anytime soon.

  4. Oooh, $800.00. That`s a big bite. Sounds like a blown head gasket or a cracked cylinder head. Radiator or water pump. Been there, done all those ! ! I was hoping it was just a radiator hose ! Sorry. So far, I`m on my second water pump and 3rd replacement radiator. It`s only money, they print more every day, right ? I just can`t get get "them" to drop off a truck load to my house .... bummer !

    I just bought a new jug of anti-freeze and found the same issue, none specifically for GMs and all 50-50 pre-mixed. At least I can leave the jug in my truck tool box without worrying about the extra jug of water freezing !

    Good luck and I`ll keep praying for your improved circumstances.