Sunday

Another Sunday.  The worst day of the week for me.  But, I will get through today like I have gotten through the others.  This is just life and I have to deal with it. 

I want to make something clear.  I wrote a post the other day about one of my brunch friends.  I think I have made it sound like she is some selfish person.  She really isn't.  Her soon to be husband is now an attorney.  They met in college and she helped support him through law school.  She worked while he went to school and he just got job less than a year ago I think.  Apparently the recession is hitting the law industry as well.  He graduated pretty high up in his class and was expecting many job offers upon graduation, but they didn't come in the way that they had hoped.  It actually took him a while to find a job. 

I am thinking the ring is kind of a payback for the sacifrices that they both made while they were struggling with school and money.  And I am sure still struggling with student loans.  Law school can't be cheap.  So maybe the rubies are her reward for paying the way while he was studying.  I am glad that it did work out for her.  There was a part of me that always wondered if he would move on once he was out of school.  You hear about that type of thing all the time.  Or maybe not all the time, but sometimes.  Girl meets boy,  boy wants to finish school before marriage, girl works her fingers to the bones paying the bills, boy gets high paying job and realizes that there are greener pastures.  I am sure that it is an equal opportunity screwing over.  But not a nice way to behave. 

But, I do know that this has changed me.  I will never look at life in the same way I did before.  I am hoping that it will postive shift.  I don't think that I lacked compassion in the past, but I know that I am going to look at people in trouble in a different way.  I know that you can't help everyone.  I also know that not everyone wants to be helped.  Some people like their misery.  They live for it. 

I just hope that I am not starting to like my misery.