I have decided that I am going to need a foot transplant after this is over. The skin on my feet doesn't even look human anymore. I can't even describe how gross it is. There is nothing that I can do about it, because I need to wear the heavy boots to stay warm, but they get very sweaty when I am inside. I can't carry around my boots everywhere. I guess I could, but it isn't very practical. They also just smell so bad too. It is just plain gross.
I am also just so tired all the time. You just can't sleep that long when it is this cold. I only get maybe four or five hours a night. That just isn't enough. I won't be able to go anywhere to take a nap until Tuesday because of the MLK holiday on Monday. The place I go to for naps will be closed.
But I have figured out some things about myself during this process. I have realized that I am hearty. I have survived this much to my own amazement. I have learned that you can sleep without a blanket. Something I didn't think it was possible until you try to sleep in a car when it is 80 degrees at 2 a.m.. I realized that you can sleep in a car when it is 25 degrees out if you layer your clothes properly. I have realized I can sleep through hearing trucks emptying out dumpsters. I don't even wake up at it anymore.
I have figured out how to keep yourself clean when you don't have access to a shower. I have learned to realize my own company is not so bad. I have figured out that you can still keep your pride when others look at you as someone who doesn't deserve respect. I have also realized that pride sometimes gets in your way.
I have figured out how to fill yourself up with very limited funds. But I think the most important thing I have figured out was how not to lose hope even when things are bad and it feels like it won't get better. It will get better. You just have to keep working at it and moving forward.
This isn't over yet, but I am getting closer. I got an email today and my federal income tax will file on Tuesday, so that is going to be a huge help to me and give me the ability to get over my biggest hurdle that I am facing. I should also be able to get most, if not all, of my car repairs done.
The light at the end of the tunnel is getting closer and brighter.