Thursday

I am going through a my life sucks stage at the moment.  I guess that is understandable under the circumstances, but I really hate self pity.  It really is a useless emotional response.  It gets you nowhere.  No, that is not true, it makes things worse for you.  So why I allow myself to indulge in it makes me mad. 

I am not able to get my car fixed because I don't have the money.  I am having no luck in find another job.  I keep filling out applications, but hear nothing back.  August is a dead month in this area, so it is not surprising, but still very discouraging.  My bank just changed and I am having problems with the routing number.  I am not sure I am going to get my paycheck on time tomorrow to top everything else off.  It seems that the routing number has changed.  But I won't be able to check for sure until I get to work tomorrow.  I can only do laundry in small loads because I am schlepping everything on the bus.  It SUCKS!!! 

So I am feeling sorry for myself at the moment.  I just need to shake it off and get on with it.  I was hoping to watch the debate tonight, but I don't think I will be able to find anyone who will be televising it.  Not many Fox News fans in this area.  Highly democratic area.  Free internet is great but it really isn't all that great for live streaming, so even if Fox does it, I won't be able to watch it in a way that it will make any sense.  It will keep cutting out on and off.  I can't be bothered to even try and watch videos anymore because it will take me 15 minutes to watch a two minute video.  It SUCKS!!!

I am trying to stay more informed politically than I have in the past, so I read things.  But only watching a debate can you tell how someone did.  No writer in the world can do it justice.  Body language and facial expressions make a huge difference and that it is hard to convey in an article. 

Oh, well.  There is nothing that I can do about it at the moment.  I have to trek back to the laundromat today, so I need to get going.

Have a good day!