Tuesday

I don't have all that much to say.  The weather has turned cold suddenly and I am not prepared for it.  I really need to get my clothes picked up.  The other homeless woman I met has agreed to take me to my storage unit.  So that will be nice.  I can't believe how suddenly it became fall.  I am sure we will have some warm days ahead, but it will be cold tonight.  Which really isn't all that bad for me since it is always warmer in the car.  It has been raining for more than 24 hours now.

The rain is hard because you can't open the windows in the car.  So it gets very stuffy.  But if you leave the window opened it will get moist and then will get a mildew smell.  With those two choices you have to take the stuffy right?  That lasts one or two nights, the mildew smell will linger for a while. 

I do have some good news at work, I will be getting an additional shift every other week.  Someone has a family issue that will take a few months to clear up, so that will help me out.  It also will make the help the time go by. 

I am hoping that this will make things better for me.  I am starting to feel like this will not be over for me before the winter comes.  I don't want to be spending the nights in a shelter.  They are not safe.  The problem is that most homeless people are either addicts or mentally ill.  So they won't think twice about threatening you or stealing from you.  It is strange, but my car is a safer place to sleep.  Also, I don't get out of work in time to get to the shelters.  You have to be there by a certain hour or they won't take you.  Most want you there before 7 and I work until at least 8 most nights.  So I don't know how I will deal with the cold weather. 

It is months away, so I can hope for a miracle between now and then.  Like I said, that woman I met has been homeless since January.  I was thinking about that today.  I remember thinking in the winter months how lucky I was that I could stave it off for a few months.  There were times that it wasn't above freezing for several days in a row.  That must really be hard.  Although I don't think she sleeps in her car every night.  She mentioned last night that she had to sleep in her car last night.  I took that as meaning that isn't always the case.  I guess she sleeps where she can, and when she can't find a place she sleeps in her car.  Sometimes I don't see her for days at a time.  I try not to be nosy, so I don't ask too many questions.  I am not comfortable answering personal questions, so I don't like asking others when I am not willing to do it myself. 

Anyway - I am off for the night.  I have a job fair to go to in the morning and I have to be there by 9.  I am normally still sleeping then, so I have to figure out a way to wake myself up. My phone alarm is not loud enough to wake me up. 

I guess I can call that lady to give me a wake up call.  Yeah, I should do that. 

Have a good night all.