Sorry I have been gone so long. But I have been very depressed. Remember when I said I needed to cry it out? Well that is what I have been doing. Almost non stop or at least it feels that way. Things have not been going well. The person who rents that room won't let me move in. I told the truth, I guess that wasn't a good idea.
I offered two months rent in advance, but she still said no. I can't what I would do in the same instance had I never had this experience. Maybe I would do the same thing.
But how exactly am I supposed to get my life back together if no one is willing to give me a chance? I had the money to pay her. I can't find much else that would have been affordable as this place. The others one that are don't happen to be accessible to mass transit. With my continuing car issues I need to be on a bus line.
Anyway, that is why I have not written in a while. I am feeling like a loser and pretty hopeless. I guess this is kind of the same thing of looking for your first job. No one hires you because you lack experience.
I need to get over it and get on with it. This is my reality and I have to deal with it.