I didn't realize that I have been away for so long. Days meld together for me. Especially when I am not working.
Not much has happened. I had a call about a job interview, so I will be going to that early next week. Work is very slow, but I did survive the latest round of reductions. I can't imagine that I survive the next one. My only hope is that I can find something else between now and then.
I have an interview early next week. It is kind of far, but I will worry about that later. I can get there, it will just be time consuming. My car just isn't up to long drives and I don't want to spend my on that until I am more settled.
I get very worried about having money for food and paying my bills.
That is one of the things that I hate about all this, the constant level of stress. Everything is blown out of proportion. Do I spend money on this or that or do I hold off? I really need a haircut, very badly in fact. But $25 is what I spend on food for a week or so. I would rather be sure that I have money for food.
I take the bus and the train often so I don't worry all that much about gas prices. A half tank can last me for quite a while.
Next Sunday is Easter and nothing will be open. What do I do? I don't want to spend money on a hotel, but I don't see that I have many options. It is a great deal cheaper than going to see my Aunt.
All these decisions can seem so overwhelming to me. I feel like I am losing my ability to think sometimes. Deductive reasoning has all but escaped me.