Today wasn't a bad day at work. I actually had some decent sales so I will get a decent amount of money this Friday. That is a relief. I need to put gas in my car and buy some more supplies for upcoming adventure. I call it an adventure just to try and stay positive about what I will be dealing with to come.
I went and spoke to the state yesterday and it was not good news at all. Housing is impossible to find. They are not even putting people on a waiting list anymore. They told me that they are still going through applications from as far back as 2006. I find that very hard to believe. Do they have one employee? That is five years. Is it any wonder that I feel that government is inefficient? I mean the lady had no reason to lie to me, but my gosh it is hard to believe.
I need to buy a cooler so I can keep a small amount of food in my car. I can get bag of ice for $1.50 and I figure until it starts getting really hot that should last me for two days. That way I don't have to buy everything prepared, as that is so much more expensive. I can buy a small amount of cold cuts and make myself a sandwich. I of course will have to buy very small amounts so I can eat it within a day. I also have buy things that won't need to be cooked. Although at my job they have a microwave so I can use that on the days that I work. I can fill up water bottles, I kept about five or six them so I can keep something to drink in the cooler.
I have gotten very good at stretching my food dollars since I have been out of work for the past two years. I can make $20 worth of groceries go a long way. But, the prices just keep going up and up as I am sure everyone else has noticed as well. I also have found that an apple and a bottle of water can be filling; at least for a few hours. The Super Wal-mart sells some produce at pretty good prices.
Sometimes I get really depressed at what my life has turned into. But, then I just repeat to myself that I have to just keep moving forward. I also have realized that letting myself think about it too much isn't good for me. I can't really change anything so I just deal with it.
I also realize that getting upset at my landlord is just self indulgent. She is a single mom who is trying to pay her bills. Her ex doesn't give her a dime so she needs the rent money to pay her bills. She was as patient with me as she could be, and I think she realizes that I am being honest about the promise to pay her back all the money I owe her, which is $1,200. Which I have every intention of doing as soon as I get settled again.
After work today I went to local mall and went to 10 more stores to see if they were hiring. Only one gave me an application to fill out. Which is more than I usually get. As I mentioned I live in a big metropolitan area so there are many malls around here. I also just spent the last hour going through the classified and sent out 8 resumes. My phone is paid for through the middle of May so I hope that I find something before I have to come up with the money to keep my phone service going. If I lose that I don't know even know how I would find a job. No one ever hires you right away anymore, if that ever happened.
I am going to try and get some sleep. I have some plans to go to another mall tomorrow. I also am going to talk to someone at my local church to see if they have an ideas for me.
Have a good night.