My life has spiraled completely out of control to the point that I will be homeless in 16 days. I have looked and looked for a full time job and cannot find one. I have do have a job, but it is part-time and pay minimum wage plus commission. The problem is that I am selling furniture from a major department store. Furniture is not something that people have a great deal of extra money to spend on at the moment. I am lucky if I make $200 per week. It isn't something that you can live on.
I used to have a very good job, but the crash of the economy took care of that. I was in marketing. That is always the first department to go and the last to be hired back. I don't expect things to pick up in that for at least another year.
I have been preparing myself for this four about five months now. When a friend asked me what I wanted for Christmas I said a gym membership. She went all out and gave me a one year membership. This will be where I shower. I also know that compared to many other homeless I am very lucky indeed. I have not only a computer, but a car as well. I have sold pretty much everything else I have of value and what little else I have managed to hold onto I will move into a storage. I was lucky to find a place that had very small storage areas as I don't need much space.
I have made this sound like this is new, but I have been staving off being homeless for almost two years now. But, when I first lost my job and had to move out of my very nice apartment I put all my stuff into storage and moved into a room I rented. But my money didn't last that long and I ended up forfeiting everything that was put in there. So I don't have much left.
I have had to learn in the past few years that you can go without. I don't have many friends in this area as I moved here to be with my ex boyfriend, but that relationship fell apart shortly after me moving here. Now I don't have enough money to get back east where I grew up. I am not sure how that would even help me at this point as I don't really have much family to speak of. Only a brother that I have not spoken to in ten years. A long sad story of how just because you are family, doesn't mean you get along.
I have convinced myself that this is a learning experience and I am trying to look at as an adventure. As I said I have had time to mentally prepare myself for this so I have figured out different things that I can do. I live in a major urban area so there are diners that are open all night. I figure I can go in there and get a cup of tea at night and read. I will stay until I get really dirty looks. I also figure I can park my car in a light parking lot of a McDonald's that has a 24 hour drive through. I am thinking I will be relatively safe there. I also know that on my days off I can spend time at the local bookstores and libraries for temperature controlled safe areas that I can doze off if need be.
The biggest issue is going to be that because gas is getting so damn expensive I have be careful about how much driving around I can do. I am going to keep things in my car for washing up and change of clothes. As I said I don't have much so it should fit in my car comfortably.
I am trying to avoid panhandling as I really can't stand it. Although I know that I have been generous to street people that I have seen. There was once this homeless guy that I saw every morning on my way to work many years ago, and I would always bring him my leftovers. His name was Andre. He explained to me that he fell on hard times due to drugs. I never gave him money, but I always made sure he had some decent food. I was doing very well at the time; had a good job and was madly in love. I always said there but for the grace of God go I. Now, I guess God has decided that I have some lessons to learn and has decided in his wisdom that it is my turn.
I am hoping that I survive this without it turning into anger at God or anyone else for that matter. Because I am going to be on the outside looking in.
I will be putting up a paypal account and if you could find it in your heart to help me, I would greatly appreciate it. I am not doing this for that purpose solely. I am hoping that I can educate people on the fact that it truly is luck and grace that it doesn't happen to you. I am a conservative person in almost all ways, especially politically. I don't like having to depend on handouts, so I am only looking for a hand up until I can get settled again.
I will try and post as often as I can. I am at the mercy of using public wifi soon, but I have been amazed at how many offer it now. This will be my homeless diary. I am hoping that it won't last too long.